Taking four steps forward,
the world always pushes me three steps back.
I go to bed give hours early,
and still wake at 4am nearly.

Save up all my time,
to spend with you today,
As deaf as I sometimes am,
I only came to hear you say.
Sitting wide awake,
only my dreams of being asleep.
In my mind; does it smile, or does it weep?

This creative inspired mind,
pushing what I know more,
My mind wanders and aches,
as everything else does apart from my jaw,
Silent in my words, spoken in my mind instead,
Its only myself that I wish I could help find,
Instead I'm just pale, laying in bed.