For all those who've spoken to me (Family, Shar, Gemma, Rob, Charlotte, Leo, Rachel, Rhi, Nic, tmbo folk), helped me and tried to cheer me up the past two days, thank you. I'm very grateful to all of you.

For those who have ill words of Natalie - please don't. She is a good person, a nice person who I still admire very much. Nat didn't do anything wrong, and in some ways I'm partly to blame anyway because I wasn't able to keep her in love with me. Nat was honest in how she felt and as much as that is painful - its true. I guess in some ways I don't really understand why she has done, or what I've done/been like to make her feel that way, but I can't change it now.

Nat's not a bad person, far from it. Please don't say anything similar to that as I'll only find it offensive. I still love her with all my heart - for the way she made me feel, the small things she does and for actually showing me many new things in myself. I'd not change my experience for the world, and sadly I wouldn't change her for the world either but that is out of my control.